dear soul
I just need to figure
out how to live in my heart
mind and body
dear soul
you are my captain
my driver
my guide
I don’t blame you
I am here because of
you
dear soul
dear soul
I just need to figure
out how to live in my heart
mind and body
dear soul
you are my captain
my driver
my guide
I don’t blame you
I am here because of
you
dear soul
your breath
is a threat
to my existence
to my subsistence
either with or
without
i die.
Note: breath work in tantric healing is the elixir and essentially brings you to constant dhikr/ presence/ hu/hayy
if you live life guilt tripping
yourself about loving too much
and not loving enough
loving fairly
or unfairly
know
this is not
how to live
live for love
who your heart loves
unapologetically
as long you believe
Laila and loving Laila
is a sin
know
you have not understood
divine love
In my heart’s prayer
I ask to be chained
to you
I desire my heart
to be chained
to you
I desire my words
my every gaze
to be chained to you
I desire my being
to be chained to you
eternally
I see you as home
I love you
I want nothing else
I desire none else
I want my heart to be chained
to you
I’ll wait forever
even if never
I want to love you
like no one else
do you accept
my request
do you accept my heart’s
prayer
this is a need
not a want
this love is essential to my
existence
I don’t desire to give
receive
or be loved other than
the way you love
your love
I desire to be chained to
Infidelity begins with your heart
making you energetically open
worshipping all but Ahad
loving all but Ahad
I am that guide
who sets the bar high
Loyalty or none
Glance here or there
be gone
Go worship
All but one
All but one
That one guide
That one love
La ilaha illa layla
Know layla is layla
only to layla
A majnun is not
Layla to Layla
infidelity the moment
stones and pebbles
we’re slightly desired
you never were then
layla for layla
in your quest for layla
You desecrated your claim
With glances and smiles
A harmless touch
your poetic lies
infidelity began
when you desired
a fragrance called variety
as children
we used to pick
flower petals
revealing if she
loves me loves me not
yellow buttercups
would determine
our destiny
skipping rope
double rope
how many kids we’d have
how foolish
how innocent
unaware of love’s pleasure
her cruelty
blue summer skies
the scent of grass
a first love
would perfume spring
colored leaves made
high with piles
where only the daring
take the plunge
snow angels
we sought magic
finally reality dawns
meeting the mirror
being set free
from the shackles of
doubt in the world of misery
just us beneath the stars
we count days
as nights pass
many moon
how afar
sunrise
sunset
longing never died
you arrived
my heart set free
like the young child
who giggled carelessly
love has a condition
once you decide
who’s love you are
who is layla
who is beloved
you are forever
enslaved in love
how naive we are
thinking love should be free
open
experimental
occidental
limited to ideals
I am forever chained
my misery no bounds
masked in smiles
until I
sojourn loyally with me
prayer is meant to make
a monogamist lover
do you understand how crucial
it for us to be reminded
not every sunday or sabbath
yet five times in a day
i bend forward
to the light in you
to all of you
i love you as you are
no need for us
to bend backwards
this love is healthy
i submit to love
in prostration
fully
i sit still in presence
with my beloved
when i stand
my gaze downcast
i seek our glance
waking me out of slumber
my index arises
i bear testimony
to love
our sacred love
this one love
lest my attention diverts
from my sun
i am reminded by the caller
come to thy beloved
this prayer is home
I’m drunk
on your luminous love
It is true
what the mystics say
In your face
I see the Maker
neither moon
or sun
compare to
your beauty
I am dumbfounded
struck
by the greatest
gift
you
the cause of guilt
her
the cause of bliss
her
the cause of your heart’s sin
her
the cause of your worship
her
the cause of your longing
her
the cause of your dance
her
the cause of your reed’s lament
her
the cause of your poetry
her
the cause of your silence
her
the cause of your disloyalty
her
the cause of your devotion
her
she is heaven
she is hell
she is damnation
she is salvation
she is your sunrise
she is your sunset
she is the moon
reflecting your glory
your love for
her
is your love for
you
she is divine
she is mortal
she brings you to the shores
in her presence you drown
why do you let guilt
eat your heart
when you know
life with or without her
is real as death and life
if annihilation is your destiny
why then question this irony