I Remembered When I Forgot

She is the moon

appearing in many forms

I praise her light 

I bow in submission 

captivated and enslaved 

to this magnificent light being

Oceans apart. I miss your heart. 

Breathe in the longing. There you’ll find me.

So you may stone me and find me standing there.

I wouldn’t even try to dodge nor retaliate.

I will just be. That’s all.

As I forgot who I was

I remembered 

emptying and refilling

absence beckoned presence 

seeing all as nothing 

nothingness as all

the dot became manifest 

as all became the dot

truth disappeared

in order to reappear

Redifine to Realign

Redefine to Realign

Those borderless lines

crossed and trampled upon

kindness brought confusion

ascertain once again 

to sift the shift

attraction points upon your path

no hit and miss

This is not a game of hierarchy 

or servant hood 

organized mind control

Master and servant

Respect is All

All is respect 

Unity and Duality

This constant unveiling of shadow and light

We drifted to a point where we forgot our connection

as sudden strangers we lied about longing 

distracted duality

rebelling reality

sacred trusts

banished and broken 

denying darkness

censored secrets  

mystical memories 

embracing ethereal 

delusional darkness

obstructing our Oneness

We merged to a point where we remembered our connection 

The Dot of Illumination

dependent on a single dot

the dot of illumination 



cycle repeats

Jonah emerges 

Jeem from Ba

veil upon veil 

dissolved in the ocean of Unity

beneath the Ark of Salvation 

merging of two oceans

eyes two seas

duality dissolved 

unified reality

two synthesizes

as one inner eye

one reality

I envy your 


that dot 

giving life 

to the dot 


designed destiny 

External reality 


perceived by two dots

Internal reality


Jonah hidden in the Ba 

Emerged into 

to that what your dot glances 


a reemergence 

necessary to fill 

dots connecting dots 

we are dots within the dot 

I am Liberated

I Am Liberated

Modern day Marjinas

in a land called Democracy 

slaves to the unquenched beast

seeking liberation 

we became enslaved 

to their equation of liberation 

a need to expose flesh 

and we say freedom of press

or shall we say their right to suppress 

to further oppress

They colonize to undress 

under the legislation 

called freedom of rights

permitting X-rated tights 

boots at the stop lights

13 year old drop outs

abducted and inducted

into high-class circles

of Men in Black

with checkered slacks

sold day and night

where children lost their rights

to learn and play

skip rope and play fight

abused and degraded 

with red lips 

lashes masqueraded

we assumed freedom

we are more not less

removing a headdress 

lead us to this mess

worse than Ayyam al Jahilliya

we became executive sex kittens 

with iphones and shaded palettes 

Plastered and contoured 

unbreathable skin

and you say free-dom

rather suffocation

your forgot your right to question 

these distortions of us women

a natural desecration 

to our natural disposition 

we came not to appease 

their standard of false perfection

white supremacy 

gender inequity 

racial audacity 

where lighter is brighter

and a shape defines your worth

this is absurd!

a nation of women 

craving cosmetic alteration 

once again to please 

the tease of men

and you claim freedom? 

the need to stay thin

starved from within 

dismanted beauty 

decided and devised 

by ill intended men

who live in perversion

white collared pedohilia

societal subversions

drug addicted nations

you say this is liberation

from Islamic fanaticism 

think again sister

You’re in delusion 

from Western illusions

that you bought into 

sold by the media 

to create mass confusion 

of mental pollution 

your obedience to their fancy

I question your sanity

pretending to be activists 

assumed leaders and socialists

of a Muslim diaspora

claiming to represent the oppressed 

post traumatic distress 

your rebellion illogical 

your story may be mythological 

a byproduct of a distorted feminist movement 

are we blind with their teargas 

that stripping me lead to slavery

a slave is one who obeys

her Lord’s orders

not to sick men and shades of grey

I am not male muse

nor will I let them abuse

my sacredness and divine honor

I give birth to humanity

I am the secret of creation

I am mind intelligence beauty

I AM spirituality

yet I choose not to be their extramarital affair

eye candy or everyday fantasy 

I’m liberated not subjugated

while I cover consciously 

discarding exposure of size and shape 

akin to visual rape

heels that kill to fulfill 

their glutinous desire 

you’re spiritually ill

like the men at Capitol Hill

to obey like Marjjna

this unquestioned immorality 

of objectifying women 

as carnal deities

can’t you see through this deception 

of sexual suggestions 

of attired pornograpy 

where women walk to men’s talk

yet appear perfectly naked albeit full clothed

keeping male bellies satiated 

in hope to be accepted 

into society sick to the brim

that redefines modesty 

from without to within

true but not absolute

superficialities lead to atrocities 

and female fatalities 

define me not.

no need for such low self worth

I am ONE with Mother Earth

who reminds me 

to flaunt not my body 

to eyes with no sight 

and minds without light

I am sacred 

this is my right

This absolute insanity 

can’t you see through this crazy conspiracy

how we fell bait and prey to

corporate and fashion hypocrisy

democratic falsity

I reiterate again and again

women are sacred 

not slaves to the male matrix

I Am liberated I Am liberated.

Man’s Feast

Man’s feast

Kill her talents

Kill her expression

Kill her thoughts

You’ve killed her spirit

Now partake of this dead meat

A splendid feast indeed

                                                For the dead man

Real Light

Real Light
There is class of men
Who eagerly anticipate the rising of the Sun
It is the light which they desire
The simple transition from night to day
From dark to light
Others would rather stay engrossed in deep slumber
Or be overcome with dread
Bearing the thought to rise
to face the beauty of the day
When its rays manifest the entire universe is lit
Many would rather close their curtains shut
Tint windows or adorn sun glasses ..
Yet the one who awaits this glorious light also mourns when it sets
For these individuals the light does more than simply shine
Its rays penetrate the soul and engrave the heart
With notes of love and secrets so sweet
That if all senses failed and memory diminished
This very heart lives on, unable to erase the everlasting message
Be it the Sun, Moon and all the constellations proclaim otherwise
Challenging the secret
This heart shall not believe
In actuality the light which shone containing the message
was only a conduit of the Real Light.
How can Truth be forgotten?

My Heart Bears Witness to AhdName

Oh Spirit of the Wine

Oh Spirit of Divine

I seek you in the Sinai ocean

and see you in every wave


Oh Spirit of the Wine

Oh Spirit of Divine

I seek you in Sinai’s sky

and feel your breath in the wind


Oh Spirit of the Wine

Oh Spirit of Divine

I seek thee in form

Yet you are the formless and formed


Oh Spirit of the Wine

Oh Spirit of Divine

I seek you upon Tur

and behold you through the sun’s rays

which shone upon Moses

He; love struck for days


Lovers come to Sinai pursuing thee

Oh Noble spirit where thy promised presence resides

You amidst them

We amidst you

Your promised protection

We seek thy shelter



Young Mohammed

Prince of the desert

wrapped in linen garb

your journey commenced

Buhaira you met

the Devoted Monk

Buhaira sought Divine

and witnessed thee!

in Love with thee

in awe for thee

transfixed upon thee

mesmerized by thee

A Prophet he declared

in thee he affirmed

long before the call

Blessed was he

among the first to believe

Prophethood he saw

in the young prince of Arabia

the seal of the Prophets

he witnessed all signs

from every holy scripture

he confirmed you sublime

Fortunate was he

to be graced by thee

love at first sight

his worship; to stare at thee

his worship; tasawwur e bashar

Tasawwru e nuur

this secret worship from time eternal

gazing at thee gazing at light

You walked among bedouins

Innocent’s delight

clouds shaded thee

every tree bowed

“Peace be upon thee!”

Birds soared cirumbulating thee

charmed by thee

hypnotized by thee

Buhaira by pen captured thee

a relic in print passed on to aspirants

Masters and seekers stare in adoration in veneration

All creation bore witness

when angels were summoned

to bow to Adam

in him stood Ahad the only Ahmad

The Holy one; the Chosen One

Disguised in Adam’s flesh

in Spiirt You-Oh Ahad-The One

Oh Ahmad Oh Mohammed

Oh Praised One

Oh First One

Oh Awal


Buhaira found the cave of light with thee

Cave of Hira said, wait you for me!

Cave Thaur said, do not exclude me!

Sinai said, come reside in me!

Again from Sinai a calling came

a delegation to Madina

seeking protection, bescheeing thee

you swore safety

a blue print for peace

Angels descended, prophets arrived

All monks witnessed

Ali your scribe

By Mohammed the praised one

Son of Abdullah

heaven bore testimony

*Isa rejoiced

his follower would fear no more

Mustafa our saviour

summoned his community

to safeguard, protect, respect all Isawis

like their own

this vow; our honour

to break; our disgrace

falling low in heaven’s eyes’

Blood shed today

Mohammed you bleed

The cross stained in crimson

Angels lament

hearing you weep



Ahmad’s Nama

Ahmad’s promise

Ahmad’s treaty

Ahmad’s covenant

Ahmad’s promise we affirm

To Sinai disheveled

To Sinai for Moses

To Sinai for Jesus

A love triangle




Mahdi’s spirit in Sinai

everpresent is he

watchful is he

calls he his men

to reaffirm the pledge of his grandfather

Ahdname Achtiname

his fellow men pledge and call upon in spirit

paying homage to Tur

where man and ash fused as one

Where fana  bore witness

to the Light of HU

refracting through Ahmad

Ahad veiled by meem

Meem striking  Moses

Catherine’s spirit  beckons Mohammed

Seekers pledge to affirm the treaty

The pledge to restore

that we lost;

the Abrahamic knot

the lessons you taught

Men set forth

armies of light

flock to pledge to Ahdname



Oh Spirit of the Wine

Oh Spirit of Divine

In Sinai your presence

In Sinai your breath

In Sinai your shade

In Sinai your light

In Sinai your promise

In Sinai your vow

We pay homage to thee

Grace us with Grace


Honor to Ali

Honor to your household

Honor to your loyal companions

Honor to the Sultans

Honor to those who upheld

Honor to those who preserved

the truth and sanctity in thy words

Honor to every witness

Honor to Sinai, the city of peace

By the fig, the olive and the Mount of Sinai


My heart bears witness to AhdName-AchtiName!


I swoon to the Ney of AhdName

My eyes shed tears to Ahdname

I whirl to the dance of AhdName

Pilgrims sojourn to AhdName

By the hand which wrote AhdName

By the scribe who recorded AhdName

I dance to the drum of AhdName

I sway to the tune of AhdName

I chant to the song of AhdName

I drum to the beat of AhdName

I sip to the wine of AhdName

By the eyes who witnessed AhdName

By the tongue which uttered AhdName

By the Angels who descend on AhdName

By the heart engraved with AhdName

By the light of Mohammed AhdName

By the one who upheld AhdName

We bear witness to AhdName

By the Ishq of Mohammed AhdName

By the love of Ali AhdName

By the sir of Jesus AhdName

By the Jalal of Moses AhdName

By the faith of Nowfal AhdName

By the love of Khadija AhdName

By the loyalty of Hayder AhdName

By the Pledge of Siddique AhdName

By the seal of Prophethood AhdName

By the covenant of Quresh AhdName

By the truce of Hudaibiya AhdName

By the Convenants to the Christians AhdName

By the Sultan’s Tughra AhdName

By the burning bush AhdName

By the valley of Tuwa AhdName

By the well of Moses AhdName

By the sanctity of Tur AhdNama

By the mention of Sinai AhdName

By the dove and spider AhdName

By the wings of the eagle Ahdname

For the sake of Mary AhdNama

By the Lord of All Worlds AhdName

We conclude with love for AhdName


Date: Jan 28th 2016

Location: Sinai Peninsual

Artist: Zualaikha


*Ahdname-also known as Achtiname
*Tur-Mount of Tur, Mount of Moses
*Fana-A state of annihilation (in Divine)
*Mahdi-The awaited messiah who hails from the Prophet’s family and will restore justice on earth. He will work alongside Prophet Jesus.
*Nowfal-A scholar of Holy books during the time of Prophet Mohammed. He was the uncle of the Prophet’s wife, Khadija.
*Hudaibiya-A treaty between Prophet Mohammed and the Quraish of Makkah.

Shame on You

Shame on you

Oh wretched one

A disgrace to Mohammed

The chosen one



Shame on you

Oh Transgressor

Verily to Mohammed

You are the oppressor



Shame on you

Oh those who kill

In the name of Mohammed

at their own will



Shame on you

Oh scum of earth

By the Truth of Mohammed

You shall not hurt



Shame on you

Oh blackened soul

Peace brought by Mohammed

His desired goal



Shame on you

Black flags you raise

Our guide is Mohammed

For Islam you disgrace



Shame on you

Chanting God is Great

By the sigh of Mohammed

Doom is your fate



Shame on you

Oh curse to humanity

By the grace of Mohammed

You bring woe to morality



Shame on you

From the depths of hell

By the purity of Mohammed

Religion you sell



Shame on you

Beards and turbans in his name

By the honour of Mohammed

You bring us to shame



Date: Jan 28/2016

Location: Sinai Peninsula

Copyright Zulaikhasdeevan

Poet: Zulaikha

Embrace Culture

Embrace Culture


To embrace culture is to embrace humanity

Embrace humanity and live in harmony

To achieve harmony within humanity

Is to live in a state of Unity

We are one human family

With all our diversities apparent and hidden

In essence we all come from the first man.